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[neopianangst]

CR TL;DR Meme



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1. post with your characters
2. comment around asking other people about your characters' cr
3. get tl;dr about how their characters feel about yours and give tl;dr to whoever comments to you
4. have tl;dr discussions if you want to, reuse shit for cr charts, etc.

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[neopianangst]

OKAY SO

Shinji's obviously not the most social person in the world, but he is lonely. So while Asuka rubs him the wrong way a lot of the time he recognizes that wow, he has a connection to her he didn't have to work for anywhere near as much as with pretty much anyone else, which makes him want to hold onto it. What he wants more than anything else is connections with others that don't feel like they're obligatory--"your family is supposed to love you"(hahaha if only he knew what his old life was like), "we knew each other in our past lives", and even "numbers club has to stick together" falls under that umbrella as far as his pessimistic depressed self is concerned--but he'll still definitely take what he can get because it's a huge step-up from having no one outside of his family(who is clearly more socially obligated to care about him than anyone else, so).

But of course, there is conflict of interest between them because Asuka is all about sticking her nose into things and Shinji would much rather leave it alone; benefit from the social connections Numbers Club has granted him and pretend the scary aliens don't exist. He's starting to develop a complex about this stuff, though, sort of like his relationship with piloting the Eva in canon, which is mostly because of Asuka's prodding him to get involved in things. It's just going a lot slower because in canon/his past life ther was a lot more pressure on him as an individual--no one's saying "do it or everyone will die/we'll make this injured girl do it instead" because there are a lot more people on the network than there were pilot children. Even the people closer to him don't really push the issue--Rei says "it's alright, you don't have to get involved, I'll protect you." Kaworu says "it's our destiny I think but you don't have to do anything you don't want to!" Asuka says "c'mon do this dangerous thing with me you pansy." Shinji worries about what people on the network in general will think of him for trying to avoid doing plot things in general but wondering what Asuka will think if he refuses is the real driving force behind him feeling like maybe he can't just let other people handle this stuff(especially since Asuka is already so very vocally critical of people). Their connection to each other as it is seems very fragile and even if she's not his first choice in people personalitywise he wants to preserve it and doesn't want her to think badly of him.

He's just generally really anxious about how he manages his relationship with her, especially since talking to her as much as he does and letting her show up for food makes Rei unhappy. They're siblings so on some level he's willing to be like "deal with it," but he doesn't want to seriously upset her, either. And he's never seen Rei that hostile towards someone that wasn't like, some kid that decided to pick on him on the playground, ever. It's kinda scary. Part of him still wants to chalk that and how wary she gets of Kaworu up to "she's jealous that I'm paying attention to people that aren't her" because they've always been so codependent though so besides wanting to maintain his connection Asuka anyway part of him also wants to do it to be like "sis I can have other relationships in my life, deal with it."

Another thing is that he doesn't see her as often as they did in their previous lives so he he's hesitant to fall into the kind of bickering they got into before, at the moment. There's a huge difference between "she shows up for dinner sometimes and bugs me on the magical internet" and "we live together and go to school together and fight aliens together," after all. This is definitely subject to change the more of her he sees, though, because it's not like she doesn't still rub him the wrong way a lot of the time.

Also she's an attractive girl and that makes him uncomfortable. He's just going to go hide behind Kaworu because he's attractive too but he doesn't have scary but hot boobs?!